Tuesday, May 28, 2024

It’s Just Myself, Talking to Me, About Myself

I don’t know about you…but the self-talk machine that runs in my head can be…unforgiving, relentless, even brutal at times. Back when I was young and insecure I thought I would be in control of every facet of my personal and professional life by the time I got to this age.

Well…now I’m ‘at that age’ and am still insecure at times…perhaps in a strange way even more so now. Why? Because I actually know things as compared to when I was young and only thought I knew things.

Big difference, right?



Some of the self-doubt is healthy for me. It keeps me grounded…ensures I don’t get too full of myself…and allows me the opportunity to show some grace…to me.

However, too much of a good thing is no good. That’s how it gets for me sometimes. The voice in my head picks up momentum and…off we go down a bunch of rabbit holes.

There’s a silver lining to this story though. Unlike when I was young and didn’t necessarily have the coping skills to effectively deal with that imposter inside me; I’m now equipped with not only a mature perspective, but mature tools as well. 

Understanding the power of faith in my life
Leaning into my men’s group for support
Reaching out to friends who ‘get me’
Having someone very special in my life who supports me

…and candidly looking back and realizing that despite the stress, anxiety, pressure and self-doubt, I’ve navigated life pretty well so far.

You have too. Don’t forget.

Thanks for being here.

Jay


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